Approaching the end of my first year of college kind of makes me look back and try and see why I hated high school so much. Of course, there's all the drama, and other's immaturity, but I can't help feeling like a lot of my issues in high-school were self-created, and I just didn't realize it. I was an emotional wreck all the time, and very hard to deal with. I was always angsty about the fact that because I moved, I didn't come into high school with a best friend already, so I was irrationally angry at everyone I met that had this best friend that they had been with since they were in diapers, simply out of jealousy. And because I was so angry and wanted so desperately to have this best friend to hang out with all the time, and to talk to, I tried way too hard to be friends with everybody, and got jealous if they spent time with anyone else. Long story short, I was angry, jealous, and possessive, and having all these negative, pent-up emotions really made me as miserable as everyone else was miserable around me.
That's just a summary of what I really regret most about high school, though. I was too scared of not having friends to really just be myself.
That's just a summary of what I really regret most about high school, though. I was too scared of not having friends to really just be myself.